Friday, May 27, 2011

The Feeling of Defeat

Have any of you ever seen the show "Addicted to Food" on the OWN network?  On the first show as they were introducing the people who were being treated for their addictions, a woman named Lanie said something that really resonated with me and my feelings of failure and defeat. 

It was something like this..."Everyday I wake up on a diet and every evening I go to bed a failure."

Have to say that really packed a punch for me.  How many times do we end up saying to ourselves...just one more time...I'll start tomorrow or after the holiday or on Monday...too many times.  I really struggle with an all or nothing attitude which is largely why I am still overweight.  I am excellent at dieting...can lose the weight when I put my mind to it, but I can't stick with it.  All it takes is one slip to ruin my day...week...month...etc. long diet and I am back to my same old fat self.

I truly believe that what I have is an addiction.  The thing of it is that unlike other addicts we can't get away from our addiction.  If I was addicted to alcohol, drugs, cigarettes, etc. I could kick the habit and never have to do it again...however with food we need it.  We cannot survive without food, so how do you kick the habit when your next fix is just a room away?

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